Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Holy Night Sweats, Batman!

I woke up not just once, but twice last night completely drenched in sweat. I feel like I didn't sleep at all. I've had 3 hot flashes this afternoon alone. And, my usual ovarian pain on my left side is back, even this early in the cycle (today is Day 9). I also kept spacing out all day (not sure if it's the lack of sleep, the temperature fluctuations, or the emotional drain from the Clomid). Twice, in meetings, I realized that I had no idea what was going on, and got the distinct impression that I had just repeated something that someone else had already said. Woopee. All of this should keep getting worse, at least through Monday. Fun stuff.

On the topic of "pelvic fullness" (I don't know why I find that term so amusing)... the pain on my left side keeps getting sharper, though pressing on it gently makes it feel slightly better. (Last night, I made S. reassure me that I wasn't irreparably crushing our potential future children.) My left ovary is always the one that hurts, and it is also the one that Dr. M. has trouble "finding" with the ultrasound, so my working theory is that my left ovary is crammed into a bizarre nook where it doesn't belong, and at the least provocation, it starts kicking the shit out of my appendix. But that's just my theory.

Also, one quick rant: if one more person uses the phrase "But you don't even have kids!" to minimize my ability to be busy or stressed, I'll start throwing punches. I'm a full-time PhD student, I work 2 jobs, I do almost all the housework for my household, I'm taking care of a husband who is still recovering from surgery, and I'm dealing with infertility treatments. Yes, I assure you that even though I do not have children, it is possible that I have a lot on my plate! It seems to me that a reasonable, friendly response of, "Wow, sounds like you're busy! Me too!" would make sense. But my friends all respond with, "You can't be as busy as me - you don't have kids!" which has the double whammy of minimizing my stressful life AND reminding me of what I may never be able to have. Thanks a bunch.

1 comment:

  1. I'm a 44 year old woman with 2 children, I've been getting Hot Flashes, night sweats, going to the bathroom almost every morning @ 4:31 AM. I know because I look @ the clock and say not again, I have no Sex Drive with my husband even though I want to.


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